Progress!
Jaerb?
Awkward awkward! I got offered a job! I worked for my father for a couple of summers and he just got the go-ahead from the company to hire an assistant for a permanent position. I get to work for my Dad (who is, oddly enough, way awesome to work for), and I'd be working for a company full of people who already know me and like me. I've done most of the work before and I know I can do it with confidence. My father is planning to retire soonish, but that gives me at least a year's worth of work before I have to worry about maybe finding another job (if they close the office or hire a new guy that is intolerable to work for).
I sort of get to name my own salary, which is weird. Even more weird is the fact that Steve pointed out today that I was making $40k at UCLA (before taxes), when I thought I was making about 10k less. They were paying me even more money than I thought, and what I thought I was getting paid seemed like way too much money for someone just out of college anyway. I cannot believe I was making that much money! I'm not even bragging (I got laid off, after all); I'm just astounded.
Moving?
Since I'm getting a job, I get to move out of my parents' house! I know this is kind of counter-intuitive, but it would be way more convenient for me to take the train 60-ish minutes to work (against rush-hour traffic) rather than carpool with my father and try to figure out how to get Steve to his job, which is nowhere near where I'd be working.
I pointed this out to my father and he said he'd cover first/last/security for me (I offered to pay him back when I had money, but I'm sure he won't take it). I get to move into my own apartment again! I get to hang out in the kitchen in my underwear again! I am so excited. I have my heart set on getting an apartment in Cambridge near my friends in the city. I'd get to go to the weird socialist bar any time I want! They have UFO on tap!
Therapy?
...is nice, but I don't think it's really helping. My therapist is really sweet and is pretty good at helping me come to conclusions about my behavior (e.g.: why am I so scared of disappointing people? Answer: I've been disappointed a lot in life and it really sucked!), but we never really set any goals for therapy (well, maybe to be self-sufficient again), and we're not working to those (maybe nonexistent) goals.
I've pretty much decided that I'm not going to have anxiety problems anymore. It doesn't really work in stressful situations (like driving in rush-hour traffic... which has never gotten any easier for me since I moved back from Los Angeles), but makes me less nervous about leaving the house or meeting up with people I don't know well or don't see often.
Wellbutrin is still my miracle drug. I'm still thinking about upping the dosage, because I do get weepy at the oddest things (see previous entry), but it's so nice to have energy.
Something that sucks:
I had to cancel my Pap today because I was spotting. Ugh. I think I have endometriosis or something because I have been having the worst pelvic pain lately (well, for about a year), and one of my sisters has it. I really wanted to go to that appointment. Boo.
Something else good:
I finally made a dentist appointment so I can get a mouth guard so I can stop grinding my teeth in my sleep. I kept having these dreams about my teeth rotting out of my head and the dreams miraculously stopped after I made the appointment. Either that, or I just don't remember them anymore.
In defense of Dreamhost
So, as you may or may not know, I'm hosted by Dreamhost, and I love them. They just had this wacky screw-up where they accidentally billed a bunch of people, so right now I'm dealing with a charge that is my actual yearly bill for this website, and I'm also dealing with a random accidental charge. I got stressed out enough to put in help request, but I feel really bad about it! I'm sure their billing team is dealing with a massive amount of mail and complaints, and I hate to add to that. They are a really good host though and they're always super nice (and they've always been really prompt with help requests in the past), so if you are looking for a host, I'd still highly recommend them.
Awkward awkward! I got offered a job! I worked for my father for a couple of summers and he just got the go-ahead from the company to hire an assistant for a permanent position. I get to work for my Dad (who is, oddly enough, way awesome to work for), and I'd be working for a company full of people who already know me and like me. I've done most of the work before and I know I can do it with confidence. My father is planning to retire soonish, but that gives me at least a year's worth of work before I have to worry about maybe finding another job (if they close the office or hire a new guy that is intolerable to work for).
I sort of get to name my own salary, which is weird. Even more weird is the fact that Steve pointed out today that I was making $40k at UCLA (before taxes), when I thought I was making about 10k less. They were paying me even more money than I thought, and what I thought I was getting paid seemed like way too much money for someone just out of college anyway. I cannot believe I was making that much money! I'm not even bragging (I got laid off, after all); I'm just astounded.
Moving?
Since I'm getting a job, I get to move out of my parents' house! I know this is kind of counter-intuitive, but it would be way more convenient for me to take the train 60-ish minutes to work (against rush-hour traffic) rather than carpool with my father and try to figure out how to get Steve to his job, which is nowhere near where I'd be working.
I pointed this out to my father and he said he'd cover first/last/security for me (I offered to pay him back when I had money, but I'm sure he won't take it). I get to move into my own apartment again! I get to hang out in the kitchen in my underwear again! I am so excited. I have my heart set on getting an apartment in Cambridge near my friends in the city. I'd get to go to the weird socialist bar any time I want! They have UFO on tap!
Therapy?
...is nice, but I don't think it's really helping. My therapist is really sweet and is pretty good at helping me come to conclusions about my behavior (e.g.: why am I so scared of disappointing people? Answer: I've been disappointed a lot in life and it really sucked!), but we never really set any goals for therapy (well, maybe to be self-sufficient again), and we're not working to those (maybe nonexistent) goals.
I've pretty much decided that I'm not going to have anxiety problems anymore. It doesn't really work in stressful situations (like driving in rush-hour traffic... which has never gotten any easier for me since I moved back from Los Angeles), but makes me less nervous about leaving the house or meeting up with people I don't know well or don't see often.
Wellbutrin is still my miracle drug. I'm still thinking about upping the dosage, because I do get weepy at the oddest things (see previous entry), but it's so nice to have energy.
Something that sucks:
I had to cancel my Pap today because I was spotting. Ugh. I think I have endometriosis or something because I have been having the worst pelvic pain lately (well, for about a year), and one of my sisters has it. I really wanted to go to that appointment. Boo.
Something else good:
I finally made a dentist appointment so I can get a mouth guard so I can stop grinding my teeth in my sleep. I kept having these dreams about my teeth rotting out of my head and the dreams miraculously stopped after I made the appointment. Either that, or I just don't remember them anymore.
In defense of Dreamhost
So, as you may or may not know, I'm hosted by Dreamhost, and I love them. They just had this wacky screw-up where they accidentally billed a bunch of people, so right now I'm dealing with a charge that is my actual yearly bill for this website, and I'm also dealing with a random accidental charge. I got stressed out enough to put in help request, but I feel really bad about it! I'm sure their billing team is dealing with a massive amount of mail and complaints, and I hate to add to that. They are a really good host though and they're always super nice (and they've always been really prompt with help requests in the past), so if you are looking for a host, I'd still highly recommend them.
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